Just when you think you made the breakthrough and you’re finally, after all the meditation, after all of the satsangs, after all of the reading, awakened, Life drags you back to the everyday vicissitudes and challenges of personal everyday existence. The key is – as it always has been – is just to see what’s happening. What are you beliefs? What do you assume to be true, as opposed to what you actually observe to be true. Usually, there is a very considerable difference between the two.
Jesus said “The truth will set you free” (John 8:32). What exactly did he mean by that? His statement mirrors that made by the great 20th century sage Krishnamurti, who said,
“To see the truth in the false, sets the mind free from the false. Freedom from the false does not come about through the desire to achieve it;
it comes when the mind is no longer concerned with success, with the attainment of an end. There must be the cessation of all search, and only then is there a possibility of the coming into being of that which is nameless.”
So how do we see the false as false?
We see that consciousness is. It happens before thought. Thought is always a secondary response to what is seen within consciousness. If you notice the chair you’re sitting on, that noticing happens after it has already been registered within consciousness. Then thought will evaluate the situation with some form of judgement. None of this is bad. None of this is, necessarily, a problem. This is what thought does and we are hard-wired to think.
The issue that all sages address is that of psychological identification. We confuse our authentic self with the psychological self. This psychological self is the small self. It has some truth to it, but it is far from the complete truth. When we identify ourselves with our conditioned – judging mind and we say, “this is who I am”, then we have identified with a very small part of our intrinsic selves.
But, when we see that we are consciousness and that this consciousness is aware of our psychological selves, then a whole new self is seen to exist. It is not new, only the realization of it is new. We are this infinite consciousness that can and will hold anything within it – whether it be bliss or suffering. Unlike the psychological self that is always on the hunt for a charge, for resolution, for help, for fun, – consciousness is always full, quiet and utterly accepting.
Which brings us back to Michael Corleone, the Godfather. You will get a sense of this consciousness, but the psychological self will always re-assert itself. So, when you think (THINK) you’re free, that pesky psychological self will pull you back in. That’s ok. We notice the process and the more we notice it, the less will be its effect on us.