This Isn't It!


This isn’t it.
Isn’t this the phrase that most seekers hear in their heads every time they check in with what is?
Isn’t this the phrase that informs us that we are not yet enlightened and that we may never attain enlightenment?

This isn’t it!
That, pretty much, closes the door on where we’re at right now. It tells us that we are not there.
But, does it tell us that we are not here? We seem to be here but not there. Hmmmmmmmm

The truth is – is that this is it. The truth is the exact opposite of what the mind is saying. So when the mind says, “this isn’t it”, realization knows, “this is it.”

What is really going on here?

If this really is it, then what is telling us, in so persuasive a manner, that this isn’t it? Isn’t that the question we ought to be focusing on?

If we know on one level that this is it, why are we so sure that this isn’t it? It seems that our knowledge, that part of us that tells us that this is it, might be secondary – it might come from what we’ve read and what we’ve heard. It doesn’t have the strength and conviction of the voice that says, “this isn’t it.”

Let’s make one assumption. We can make this assumption now and see if it’s true later in our inquiry. Let’s make the assumption that the character who is saying “this isn’t it” is the ego or what I have call the Fear-Self in my book.

We can see and feel the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it”. It has a certain hardness to it – a kind of closing off to the moment.
So who or what sees and feels this?

Is it not the awakened self?
Do it now. Hear LOUD and CLEAR the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it!”

Now what happens when the Fear-Self says that this moment isn’t it?

Doesn’t the whole process of seeking begin anew? Doesn’t the endless journey of the ego to attain perfect, contented bliss get re-vitalized?

Now please consider this question.
Who is it that believes the ego when it says, “this isn’t it”? I have found this to be a somewhat trickier question. What we are asking is – Who is the believer? Who is it that believes the statement, “this isn’t it.”?

It might be good to stop reading for a moment and ponder that question. Let’s word it slightly differently.
Who is it that believes in the you that you believe yourself to be???????????

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Is it not the ego stating a position and the ego believing in its own position?????? Are not the belief and the believer one?

If that is true, then what follows?????

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

You are not the person you believe yourself to be. Everything about yourself that gushes ceaselessly from your mind is just a play of your conditioned consciousness. It is the judge, jury, and prosecutor – it is that which espouses positions and that which believes in those same positions.

Now return to this very moment with this Realization. You are not the person labeling this moment as “this isn’t it” – you are that for which there are no words.

Let the ego blab on. The moment the believer element of the ego dies, in that same moment, the voice of the ego becomes just noise.

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  1. #1 by Bob on November 8, 2010 - 2:13 pm

    Eric,
    Your comment that” isn’t it the ego stating It’s postion and the ego believing in it” is exactly what woke me up three years ago. I realized in that moment that thought was creating all the suffering and there was no “I” that suffered. However after awhile my ego came back with a vengeance. Your book is one of the most important books i’ve read because you Identified to me where this ego began. My story! i’m now able to recognize it for what it is. it’s not always easy however and I still get caught in it . Thank you for this post because it relates to my experience of awakening and the aftermath.

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