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Liberation from the Lie Consultations


The message of Liberation from the Lie is the ending of suffering.

Each of us was born as a perfect Authentic Being. But even before we could think in words, we were subjected to the trauma of separation. I call this trauma the Wound. This Wound tells us that we are somehow not right – that we are inadequate, insufficient, and unworthy of love.

Because the Wound is so painful, we develop Fear-Selves, personas designed to prove our adequacy, sufficiency, and lovability. We become obedient, ambitious, grandiose.

This is the life of pain. To escape the pain, our lives become committed to constant searching – searching for the Fear-Self that will finally relieve our inner confusion and lack. This is a strategy doomed to failure, for no Fear-Self can accommodate the ever-changing events of life that will repeatedly expose our Wound of separation.

Based on my many years working with Navajo healers, as well as my immersion in Buddhism, I’ve been lucky to learn the message of Liberation. I have seen how the spark of transformation can be created by spending time with someone who can communicate this message. I am therefore offering consultations, by phone, Skype, Google Video, or in person, to help guide you along the journey from separation to unity.

To explore whether these consultations might benefit you, your first 30-minute session is free. Subsequent sessions cost $50 for up to 90 minutes apiece. Also, I will send you the audio file for your future reference. This can be invaluable.Several sessions could save you years of searching. You can see, on the right , a sampling of what others have said about Liberation.

Contact me at: eric@liberationfromthelie.com. Tell me a little about yourself and then we can find out, through the free session, whether these consultations are right for you.

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Let Awakening Come to You: The Path to Yourself (From the Liberation from the Lie Sequel – The Way of Liberation: At Home on Planet Earth)


Do you really want liberation from the seeming meaningless of your life?

Do you strive for what others have called “enlightenment”?

Do questions like these often fill your consciousness?

Then listen up. For you are now on the wrong track. You’re missing it and you’re missing it by miles.
Awakening is now or it’s never. It will never happen when you’re seeking it – when you’re struggling to “get” it. It is either here and now or it is nowhere.

I know your problem because I’ve suffered from the very same problem. We hear about all of this enlightenment stuff in a life where there is constant heartache, struggle, and challenge and when the fear of death hangs over us like a guillotine. So we take the bait. We read dozens, often hundreds of books. We’re on the look-out for the next Mooji video and wished we lived in a place like Santa Cruz where enlightened dudes can be found speaking in small bookstores or in the comfy well upholstered living rooms of well-off people.

We get obsessed. We really, really, really want this thing called enlightenment. There have been moments when we’ve been filled with bliss and light and then the moment sadly passes. Just another state that comes and goes. We have no where else to go, but to get back on the track and start running, breathlessly running for the one book, the one talk, the one retreat, even the one off-hand remark that will finally and forever set us free.

Yet it eludes us and there is a part of us, a small part but real voice that whispers in our ears that it’s hopeless. Now we know that we’ve come to a terrifying crossroads. The first and most obvious road is that it’s all hopeless. We could meditate for a hundred years in the very presence of the Buddha himself and still never make that essential breakthrough. The other road tells us that it’s all bullshit. That we’ve been feverishly chasing an illusion – a hoax. That these fakes claiming to be enlightened and actually have the gaul to wear white flowing robes and always be sitting next to a vase of pretty flowers and be surrounded by their adoring and reverential followers (assholes) are just full of shit.

It’s either one or the other.

Actually it’s both. It is hopeless and the people we observe, who claim their special status are anything but enlightened.

Surprised?

If you’re not, you should be. For we know that as long as we’re seeking “it”, we will never “get it” and we know that no body ever “gets” enlightened. This we know.
Are you totally convinced? Probably not, (although you should be) but allow me to continue.
First you do really must know that it really is hopeless and these self-proclaimed gurus are not enlightened. That is just a simple fact.

Let’s address the gurus first. That’s the easy part. They are not enlightened because no “body” is enlightened. What you see and hear and feel is just appearance – fleeting and insubstantial. It’s just sight and sound ‘signifying nothing’. While their body is just a body, their words may trigger something in your experience that can illuminate the false. We move closer to the true every time we see what we’ve believed to be true turns out to be false. That is the very process of self-liberation. In illuminating the false these words can have the power to enable to release yourself to the real. But ultimately, the many gurus out there don’t matter.

All that matters is you.

We’ve already said that if you’re seeking “it” – “it” will elude you. As seekers, it truly is hopeless. This is a basic fact.

“It” can only happen now. So what are we to do? I am beaten by this profound problem and am left truly hopeless and now without resources.

What you can “do” is to put out the “awakening’s welcome mat” by engaging with an open heart and mind with this moment right now and right here. This, my good friend, is your life. Live your life right now and let the ‘magic’ happen. When you are seeking for it someplace else, it can never be found. You must live your life now, as if you will die by nightfall and if it is night when you’re reading this, then just substitute the word dawn.

Five minutes can seem like a lifetime when you’re really alive to it. Get pulled in by life just as it is. Stop being so quick to judge this moment as “not it”, for every time your mind inserts this belief it creates an insurmountable wall to Realization. So live “this life – your life” right now and awakening will come to you … rather than the mind goading you to run to it. That which runs toward anything is merely the “inadequate self” seeking relief from itself!!!

So let awakening come to you by living this moment and the next moment by truly living it. When you love life, life will love you back.

You see your very mind, the judger, the knower, is the final obstacle. Awakening is right here, right now. Drop all of your defenses and resistance to this moment and the next and the next and the next – and it will come to you. Trust life.

Then you will Realize and it will truly be yours’. Just as we awaken each day from sleep, so the spirit awakens unbidden and free.

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Becoming Trust Itself


Yesterday we said that trust in one’s self is the final hurdle.

We noted that perceptions, feelings, and thoughts belong to “know” (no) one, but are simply part of the living environment. Thus, if you are sad, the sadness is not your sadness and if you are happy, the happiness is also not your happiness.

Thus striving to be anything or anyone is a hopeless endeavor. It is also true that seeking to avoid a certain condition, is also equally hopeless.

A thought (feeling or perception) is intrinsic to itself. This means that an object is true to itself in the moment of its apperception. It is not your object. The YOU you take yourself to be is just another object that is also intrinsic to itself in the moment of its apperception.

That tree that you can see outside possesses little quality of being possessed by the personal you, but your thoughts feel like your very own thoughts. But it is said here that, in essence, the tree and the thought are not different on the level of objective reality. As the tree is intrinsic to itself, so is the thought. Any thought or feeling can be appreciated in the moment it arises.

When you see a tree, both the “you” (a thought) and the tree (a physical object – experienced as a different class of thoughts) are objects that belong to no one. They are each objects of differing class arising from the ground of being.

We will never be able to trust ourselves as long as believe that our thoughts and feelings belong to me – a thought.

We can’t trust that false sense of me because it’s a concept based on a false premise – something that isn’t true. You and I are not thoughts. Thoughts are just objects and objects are subject to change.

The realization that you are not a thought, that you never have been a thought, and never will be a thought is enlightenment itself.

Here is the key instruction: The effort to understand yourself as a thought or a concept or a feeling is utterly futile. It is what keeps the infinite wheel of seeking going. When you truly know that you are not a thought, the seeking ends and everything is revealed in the light of your perfect being. It is radiant, raw beauty.

We are that which never changes. We are not a thought. We are that which experiences thought, but is not any experience.

That which sees the tree and that which observes the thought of the seer of the tree is one and the same. Do that right now. Observe something, then quickly notice a thought of someone (yourself) seeing the object. Not how that which sees and notices the object and the assumed subject are the same thing – a kind of perfect openness.

Trust THAT!

The moment our need to trust a thought as ourselves is seen as false and we instantly transition to just being that which observes and notices, we are free of the slavery to the false me. This is not an easy or simple Realization.

You and I are not slaves to any thought.

When I think I am a fool, I feel bad. When I think I’m a wonderful, generous person, I feel good. Neither condition or identity is stable. It just moves with mood and circumstance. When it feels bad, it needs to feel good and when it feels good it tends not to be very concerned about feeling bad.

Liberation is freedom from all notions of good and bad. But it is more than mere noticing. For when we are free of identifying with any thought, we can be one with anything and we are one with everything all the time. The array of observed things change but the open field stays the same.

There is a vast embrace held by the field. This is compassion, connection, and carrying – all at once.

Imagine the Great Plains, covered in wild grasses. It holds the immense Western Sky, the thousands of birds that fly in the open space, their infinite calls, the powerful clouds that drift above, the mighty herds of buffalo that rumble across the open earth. Now a band of hunters appear. They wildly fly after the scrambling buffalo. A lance hits one of the buffalo and rich, red blood spurts from the open wound. Death happens suddenly in the vast field of being. Elsewhere a baby calf is born. Life happens suddenly in the vast field of being. Night follows day and Spring follows Winter. The cycles follow an invisible spiral beginning nowhere and ending nowhere and we are that.

The challenge of trust becomes nothing at all when we are free of all self-identifying thoughts. Instead of needing to trust something or someone, we are trust itself – trust in the perfect, seamless reality of this world.

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The Perfect Key to Awakening – The Play of the Grandiose Self


Pablo Neruda

Many people who have traveled the world and especially those who spent a fair amount of time of what we used to call the Third World, have often remarked how happy and relaxed the local people are. Often upon returning to the uptight and stressed world of the “First World”, they will talk about their easy-going smiles that seem to light up a room.

I have noticed that myself in my own travels and just that one small perception was one of the ideas that inspired my book Liberation from the Lie.

Why is that? This is the question I am going to try to answer in this post. But within this question arises the clearest expression of discovering the awakened self.

Anyone who has ever meditated – anyone who has been attracted to what we might call Eastern Philosophy – reaches a stage where they make inquiries into the self. “Who am I” they ask themselves. “What am I?”

In this way we start to explore the self – that being that we have taken ourselves to be these many years.

Awakening reveals something really quite amazing about this self. It reveals a quality that we might be very reluctant to see or admit to.

It reveals that this self is very grandiose. It’s the BIG story. It’s the MAIN story. It has a bigness to it. But it is a solitary and detached bigness. We can’t help noticing how this all-important self is separate from the rest of the world. It’s separation gives it a feeling of vulnerability – brittleness.

In contrast, realization shows a universe where beingness is without dimensions. It doesn’t possess substance. It’s just … light – ‘the incredible lightness of being’.

You might want to see if this is true for your own experience. When something is BIG, then it’s IMPORTANT. It has weight. It’s something that needs to be carried about. It’s very fatiguing. If we are to experience our essence, we just need to see this BIGNESS and get sick and tired of carrying it around.

Now let’s get back to our Third World Friends.

In places that are far less stressed, that have far fewer things – the concept of the BIG me is far less vigorous. There is an easy-going quality of the self. Because it’s not nearly so big, it can be a lot more nimble and generous. It has little, but it is happy to share the little it possesses.

Thought, desire, fear, grandiosity, all contribute to making life and our sense of ourselves so much more complicated and convoluted. We get all wrapped up in this HUGE version of ourselves. The whole endeavor takes on its own terribly serious quality. This is how we make it all so very complicated.

We really don’t need to do this.

What we need to do is just see all of the bullshit spiritual baggage for what it is – an expression of our own underlying grandiosity. This is all the false-self with all of its immense weight. It’s a life killer and the life it’s killing is your own.

So just stop trying be something. Focus on simplicity. What is your essence? What is that one and only quality that you cannot be without? What is the source of you?

Every time we want ‘to be something’, we are back on the wheel of samsara.

Read the next line as gospel truth.

The person you take yourself to be, this person that right now believes that she is reading this post, that person is just part of the show.

Everything is the show. It can’t be figured out, because he who would try to figure it out is also part of the show. It’s all a show! This is what enlightenment is – the realization that you are nothing – that everything you believe yourself to be, that which believes it is that sees, touches, feels, hears, and all the rest is all the show as it is happening right now! That which seeks to change it – to mold it to their preferences – that too is just part of the show. When this is truly seen and felt, every urge to change what it is – is seen to be the essence of futility. It all stops here and now.

The show IS the show. There is really not much more you can say about it. It is what it is.

Now let’s deal with a question that will inevitably arise: “Are you saying that I should do nothing – that in the face of all the problems we are facing nowadays, that I should just site back and enjoy the show?”

Answer: What you do is part of the show. So if you feel motivated to work on social justice issues, then do what you’re motivated to do – do it 100% – do it with all of your heart. Just know that you are playing on the stage of being. This is NOT, I repeat NOT a minimalization of doing. To the contrary, when you are Realized, the doing what you love gets massively energized. Everything is just an incredible vibe. Everything feels alive. You finally understand the Native American understanding that everything is alive – not on an intellectual level, but on a gut level. It is the purest of energies. When we believe that we are a small and vulnerable part of the show, that’s then when we get scared and frustrated. There is a very decisive difference. You will know it when you experience it.

Also, when you believe that you are this small person in this vast world, that small person will need to be the center, the focus, the problem, the issue. It is the being that must wonder HOW to get enlightened, HOW to be happy, HOW to be fulfilled, HOW to be successful. It will be the IDENTITY that needs to be seen, that needs to be respected, that needs love and to be loved, that needs acknowledgement, if only from yourself. In other words, this is the grandiose character. It is the very definition of “uptight”.

This is the essence of duality. On one side is the well-intended you yearning for freedom, release, understanding, oneness and on the other side is the perceived you, stumbling, confused, sad, frustrated, frightened.

But when you realize that everything that is happening, and most especially the person you believe yourself to be is a kind of automatic show*, then you are truly FREE and liberated. This is the truth from someone who is living that truth and this person living this truth is also part of the show.

If you have any questions about this post, just contact me. I can help you along the path.

Just feel the whole complexity of the false self and, simultaneously, feel the pure simplicity of that which notices. You are THAT. But even that is saying too much.

*what you would love to do (as briefly discussed above) is also ‘automatic’.

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This IS It!


Yesterday we talked about “this isn’t it”, so today I thought would be a good time to talk a little about “this IS it”.

When the mind determines that “this isn’t it”, but realization knows that “this is it”, what can we say about the difference?

First, you must know that this is very difficult to put into words. I think it might be best to speak about this difference metaphorically.

When the mind says, “this isn’t it”, that is the voice of the conditioned, personal self. But then this voice drops away, what is really happening is the dropping away of the conditioned and personal self.

The voice that says “this isn’t it” is also the voice of personal desire AND, as I have said a thousand times on this blog, until we see the compulsive force of personal desire as the flip side of one’s identification with inadequacy, we will never see the complete picture of the personal self.

Desire is the personal identification with inadequacy. Personal, self-focused desire ends when the identification with personal, self-focused inadequacy (insufficiency, worthlessness) ends. At those all too brief moments when we feel truly awakened we experience this first-hand. These moments are transitory because the underlying identification with inadequacy inevitably returns and we feel that we are back where we started.

Thus we can truly see “this is it” when the personal self fully drops away. Another way of expressing this is the final seeing through of our identification with inadequacy and the whole array of Fear-Selves that develop in its shadow signifies the return to our Authentic Being. Reading Liberation will help greatly in seeing and understanding this dynamic.

When you read these words know that they are read by the personal self and know that they are written by a personal self – but that doesn’t really matter once the identification with the personal self drops away. As long as we have a body, we will have to use a personal self. We will continue feeling passion, connection, pain, and drive – it’s just that our personal attachment with any condition will be transformed in their totality.

Quite literally, we will have died. The Buddha said that self-realization occurs when the self-cherishing thought cluster is dropped. It is dropped by no one. It just happens when the time is right.

We must grow utterly exhausted and bored with this personal self – this constant negator, the fountain of ceaseless desire. We nurture it in so many ways, but one of the most subtle ways is our “spiritual resistance” to its manifestation. So just let it be as it needs to be, but grow tired by its insistent voice. Stop nurturing it through unnecessary attention or need for it to go away.

Remember, the only difference between the Buddha and yourself is the issue of personal identification.

To me it really feels like death. The bliss of awakening requires the death of the personal self. And death means death. Total annihilation – gone.

Where the personal self is always on the hunt to get what can never be obtained, the Self of realization is always here; strong solid, yet without weight or substance.

Where the personal self is ceaselessly looking here and there and thus is always driven to say “this isn’t it” – the great Self always knows – “this is it”.

Important Note

It’s easy to misinterpret this post and starting struggling to STOP everything in your experience. People get tied up in the strangest of psychological straight jackets when they try to stop the natural flow of life in the name of extreme spiritual pursuits (which are nothing different from any other project of the personal ego).

The problem is never life. The problem is that we negate our own immediate experience (when we say, “this isn’t it”). Those who seek to experience ego death believe by trying to kill everything in sight are profoundly incorrect. They are, in effect, amplifying the action of ego to a pitch that is agonizing and unnecessary.

What this post counsels is to see the expression of personal inadequacy expressed as personal desire. That is really all you need to see and know. So when we speak of ego death, we are speaking only of the death of that. But it is a vast death indeed.

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This Isn't It!


This isn’t it.
Isn’t this the phrase that most seekers hear in their heads every time they check in with what is?
Isn’t this the phrase that informs us that we are not yet enlightened and that we may never attain enlightenment?

This isn’t it!
That, pretty much, closes the door on where we’re at right now. It tells us that we are not there.
But, does it tell us that we are not here? We seem to be here but not there. Hmmmmmmmm

The truth is – is that this is it. The truth is the exact opposite of what the mind is saying. So when the mind says, “this isn’t it”, realization knows, “this is it.”

What is really going on here?

If this really is it, then what is telling us, in so persuasive a manner, that this isn’t it? Isn’t that the question we ought to be focusing on?

If we know on one level that this is it, why are we so sure that this isn’t it? It seems that our knowledge, that part of us that tells us that this is it, might be secondary – it might come from what we’ve read and what we’ve heard. It doesn’t have the strength and conviction of the voice that says, “this isn’t it.”

Let’s make one assumption. We can make this assumption now and see if it’s true later in our inquiry. Let’s make the assumption that the character who is saying “this isn’t it” is the ego or what I have call the Fear-Self in my book.

We can see and feel the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it”. It has a certain hardness to it – a kind of closing off to the moment.
So who or what sees and feels this?

Is it not the awakened self?
Do it now. Hear LOUD and CLEAR the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it!”

Now what happens when the Fear-Self says that this moment isn’t it?

Doesn’t the whole process of seeking begin anew? Doesn’t the endless journey of the ego to attain perfect, contented bliss get re-vitalized?

Now please consider this question.
Who is it that believes the ego when it says, “this isn’t it”? I have found this to be a somewhat trickier question. What we are asking is – Who is the believer? Who is it that believes the statement, “this isn’t it.”?

It might be good to stop reading for a moment and ponder that question. Let’s word it slightly differently.
Who is it that believes in the you that you believe yourself to be???????????

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock

Is it not the ego stating a position and the ego believing in its own position?????? Are not the belief and the believer one?

If that is true, then what follows?????

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

You are not the person you believe yourself to be. Everything about yourself that gushes ceaselessly from your mind is just a play of your conditioned consciousness. It is the judge, jury, and prosecutor – it is that which espouses positions and that which believes in those same positions.

Now return to this very moment with this Realization. You are not the person labeling this moment as “this isn’t it” – you are that for which there are no words.

Let the ego blab on. The moment the believer element of the ego dies, in that same moment, the voice of the ego becomes just noise.

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This Isn’t It!


This isn’t it.
Isn’t this the phrase that most seekers hear in their heads every time they check in with what is?
Isn’t this the phrase that informs us that we are not yet enlightened and that we may never attain enlightenment?

This isn’t it!
That, pretty much, closes the door on where we’re at right now. It tells us that we are not there.
But, does it tell us that we are not here? We seem to be here but not there. Hmmmmmmmm

The truth is – is that this is it. The truth is the exact opposite of what the mind is saying. So when the mind says, “this isn’t it”, realization knows, “this is it.”

What is really going on here?

If this really is it, then what is telling us, in so persuasive a manner, that this isn’t it? Isn’t that the question we ought to be focusing on?

If we know on one level that this is it, why are we so sure that this isn’t it? It seems that our knowledge, that part of us that tells us that this is it, might be secondary – it might come from what we’ve read and what we’ve heard. It doesn’t have the strength and conviction of the voice that says, “this isn’t it.”

Let’s make one assumption. We can make this assumption now and see if it’s true later in our inquiry. Let’s make the assumption that the character who is saying “this isn’t it” is the ego or what I have call the Fear-Self in my book.

We can see and feel the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it”. It has a certain hardness to it – a kind of closing off to the moment.
So who or what sees and feels this?

Is it not the awakened self?
Do it now. Hear LOUD and CLEAR the ego labeling this moment as “this isn’t it!”

Now what happens when the Fear-Self says that this moment isn’t it?

Doesn’t the whole process of seeking begin anew? Doesn’t the endless journey of the ego to attain perfect, contented bliss get re-vitalized?

Now please consider this question.
Who is it that believes the ego when it says, “this isn’t it”? I have found this to be a somewhat trickier question. What we are asking is – Who is the believer? Who is it that believes the statement, “this isn’t it.”?

It might be good to stop reading for a moment and ponder that question. Let’s word it slightly differently.
Who is it that believes in the you that you believe yourself to be???????????

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock

Is it not the ego stating a position and the ego believing in its own position?????? Are not the belief and the believer one?

If that is true, then what follows?????

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

You are not the person you believe yourself to be. Everything about yourself that gushes ceaselessly from your mind is just a play of your conditioned consciousness. It is the judge, jury, and prosecutor – it is that which espouses positions and that which believes in those same positions.

Now return to this very moment with this Realization. You are not the person labeling this moment as “this isn’t it” – you are that for which there are no words.

Let the ego blab on. The moment the believer element of the ego dies, in that same moment, the voice of the ego becomes just noise.

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